Desperate to Live

I sit up straight to prevent the pain in my back

I hold my head up high to prevent the pain in my neck

After several hours, my back, my neck, they're tired.

I slouch as I sit to ease the pain in my back. It makes it worse.

I let my head hang low to ease the pain in my neck. It makes it worse.

I prop my legs up, to ease the ache in my veins, but the blood wants to flow not sit, and wait.

I turn the brightness down to ease the strain on my eyes, but my eyes want to look at anything else.

My stomach's become bloated eating all the wrong things. Chef and nutritionist? that's not in my job description.

Stomach acid boils over, burning my throat. I'm choking, drowning.

Muscles all around my head are tense, straining my mind. I'm nauseous, dizzy.

Desperate to let go, desperate not to be let go. Desperate to live.